This over-the-hill ride is getting kinda' crazy....or perhaps it's me. I feel like I've tripped over a large rock and am tumbling head over heels. I don't know where to expect to end up. You know, as an adolescent, there was often plenty of 'literature' to explain the pitfalls and perplexity of that age, but that was nothing compared to this trip.
What brought all this on:?? Nothing much. I thought I was headed for a panic attack tonight, and it was triggered by not much, just a couple of slip-ups piled one on the other. For one, I needed to hem Papabear's trousers. I had planned to get this job done by a professional, but let it fall through the cracks. Papabear needs them in the morning!!!. What drives me nuts is being totally unprepared for getting this job done. And I still don't know where I put the IRON!!! I put it right where it belongs when we moved in last August, wherever that is, but I haven't needed it and I don't know where that just- the- perfect- place is. This is a small apartment with very limited closet space. Where would it be??? This coupled with another slip-up and I was ready to throw in the towel, take to my bed and stay there for a few months.
I got thinking about sewing. I haven't done anything in that area for....???....years, I guess. Now I wonder why I am holding onto it, or if I really want to not ever think about it. And can I even do anything anymore. I am also not getting any reading done, well not much. I've always been a reader. I rent tent space at Barnes & Noble, and love to write reviews for Librarything online. But maybe I'm tired of reading and don't want to do it anymore. Cooking is another thing. Our kitchen now doesn't hold much for even a week's meals. Would it be worth the trouble to try to become a good cook now?? I've made it this far with hardly a casserole to my credit.
I must say, that hemming Papabear's trousers tonight has recalled the pleasures of pushing needles through fabric to create something of lasting value. There is no reason I can't sew. Other things are difficult to get to as I am really quite busy most of the time. I have lots of books I want to read. I want to be a good cook. But maybe I just don't want to think about any of it anymore. Maybe there are new places to go.
Does any of you ever feel confused with these things?? Do you have some advice? Am I wanting to let go or hold on to old pleasures??? I feel like I want to go both ways at the same time. Is it okay to slow down??
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Hi Rosalie, YES--it's okay to slow down, but don't EVER give up the things you enjoy and WANT to do.
Hugs,
Betsy
Thanks Betsy....what you say means a lot to me.
KOAST THE WAVE MUDDER
DON'T WORRY ABOUT THE OTHER SURFERS, JUST ENJOY THE RIDE. NOBODY'S WATCHING. IF YOU FEEL LIKE DOING A JUMP DO, IF YOU FEEL LIKE LAYING BACK AND WATCHING THE SCENERY DO.
THAT INCLUDES YOURSELF. SOMETIMES ITS LIKE I'M WATCHING MYSELF AND THINKING WHAT I SHOULD BE DOING OR FEELING, AND THAT JUST BRINGS ON HEADTRIPS. I HAVE TO REMEMBER TO STEP ASIDE AND JUST COAST THE WAVE.
DOES THAT MAKE SENSE? I DON'T KNOW, MAYBE I'M SAYING YOURE THINKING ABOUT IT AND WHAT U OR OTHERS WOULD OR SHOULD THINK, DON'T JUST DO.
SORRY, MY MEDS LOL NOT THE DEBATER I USED TO BE.
let me try again-- just cause everyone looks like they're doing jumps or riding the eye doesn't mean you have to, if you just do what you feel out there it's a much better ride.
You are such a writer.....you express yourself sooooooo well. Might I have some advice to give? Probably not. Where the helky would I find any? I certainly hope slowing down is ok. Maybe you want to go one way today, then tomorrow you want to go the other...I do believe that is okay. Cook today, read tomorrow, whatever tickles your fancy, just promise me you will keep writing!
The house in the roses is what I want to be when I grow up....when I graduate from little house on the prairie........
Thank you all....sagebrushandsneezes.. I wanted to visit you, but I lost your comment instead, maybe. I'm gonna go see if I can find it. Clever name.
still finding my way around. hope your trip was good. can't wait to hear about it.
Yes!!! And it's O.K. to stop and reevaluate your life. You may find that something wonderful is looming on the horizon.
All my working life I dreamed of when I could be home with my girls, that's what I wanted more than anything. I dreamed of being home and making jelly and walking through the fields with my long hair blowing in the wind. REALLY! I dreamed of having time to paint.
Anyway, I finally got retired. But my girls were gone....they had grown up and had their own lives. And long hair would look awful on me so my hair is very short and I hate to make jelly! And I don't paint much. But I take pictures and have two blogs and am a paper fanatic. I have an art room crammed with beautiful papers. And I have an Etsy shop and lovely customers like you who buy things. Things didn't turn out like I planned.....but even better.
So just take a deep breath and don't try to hold onto those things you THINK you should be doing but what you WANT to do. Blessings, Diane
THanks Diane... You have wonderful advice.
Hi Rosalie friend,
Oh it is so okay for us to slow down. I can't believe how much I have lost the zeal for at times and them Wham! It all comes back and I let something else go for a time. That's the wonderful thing about getting older. We realize that we don't have to do it all, nor can we.
I hate it when I can't find something, and it's over to the neighbors I go. hehe
I did some catching up here today, and I can't believe you haven't heard an owl before! The other night one lulled me to sleep. I loved their hooting.
Sending you big hugs today!!!
ROSALIE!!! Oh yes, PLEASE, slow down! I am a teacher and for years I have been going in and trying to be into my classroom by 6:15am. WHY???? This is the first year that I am saying, TOO BAD. I am NO LONGER TRYING to be THE FIRST one there, although I still get there early! I am walking the halls slower now, but I don't know if it is due to age creeping up or what! But is feels better to SLOW DOWN...do it. It is better for your all-around health. THANK YOU FOR VISITING ME!!! Anita
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