dear Khrystine...this is in response to your blog on Stiletto Cherry about who we are and whether we like ourselves or not.

I think I know your feelings because I have the same kind, even at my...past middle years age. Sometimes I am sooo disappointed in my self. Things haven't turned out as I had planned many years ago, when I was your age and dreaming of becoming. Often I wonder what the heck happened to this or that dream. Why am I so far away from the original blueprint??? I always wanted to be thin and beautiful. I always wanted to be intelligent and gracious. I still want so very much to be efficient. WHY can't I be efficient????? Well anyway.........
Now, at my age, because of my age probably, sometimes I seem to fit in less and less with other younger, more vibrant women who are so modern and smart. But I will admit there are lots of times when I feel a deep contentment about who I am. A lot of pressure is gone about that, and who I am is just fine.

However..... I STILL want the old dreams, the admiration or respect just because I'm above average wonderful ^.^) However, lots of times it seem like I've missed the proverbial boat. Not only that, but it seems certain there are no more boats coming soon and it's likely my ego got up and went home to take a long nap. What do we do?

It might be good to put all this in a forever perspective. I don't know anyone who doesn't believe there is another life in the wings for all of us, and when we give our last curtain call, we will be off to another place in another time. So there you have forever. If life continues on and on, will you not always be you, even if your name and place changes? On this continuum, it seems to me that you can have whatever you want, and change things whenever you'd like, as well. Many things will come and go. So let go of what you don't like or want and pick up what you do want. And perhaps the easiest way to do that is to just do it. Act as if, and you will become as. Teehee.......you can quote me on that....sure made a mess of the original phrase that was well put, eh? The practice of Tapping to focus yourself should work well here. You know what that is, so we can pursue that subject another time. Also, it seems like pretending helps a lot. Pretend to be what you are longing for......behave as if it's already true. Sometimes we are a bit confused about that, but, I believe it will just come along if you get started down the road. After all, every accomplishment is done with one step at a time. Let's try it..... just pretend you are perfectly who you want to be. I'll try it too, which kind of makes me realize how not-so-easy it could be at first, but, tomorrow you be glamorous, vibrant, and all you're dreaming of. I will be young, up to date, and efficient. Then we'll talk about it.....that's the fun part.
P S....... I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!!!!!!!!!