This week....AGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
Nothing terrible particularly. It's just that everybody is tired. Many of you are about to crack up. What's wrong?
Maybe we all need a day off. And why on earth can we not have a day off??? What are we doing starting work at 3:00 in the morning...getting our babies transported across town before sunrise...living everyday to do nothing more stimulating than fight horrible, aggressive traffic? Whatever happened to........?? I don't even remember. It's all chaos and scrambled brains for breakfast, and I don't mean to eat.
I don't have the rough life. You all out there have the rough life, yet watching you all lose your minds makes me feel like I'm losing mine too. When you are losing yours, there seems to be nothing I can do to help. We are all cloaked in a dark shroud of panic and agitation. Sometimes television helps, but I suspect it just momentarily finishes dulling our senses so we don't feel so much frustration.
AGGHHH...I don't know what to do about it. Maybe it's just a rough week. Maybe we are all just tired. Ah well, we've already established that for fact. I guess we just keep going. Try to get done tomorrow what still waits from today. Or maybe go to a movie. Popcorn has mysteriously curative powers. I fear all this conglomerate society of insanity is here to either stay or get worse. We'd better learn to live with it or learn to get away from it. I'm on your side....even if I sound very, very grumpy. Down deep, I still know that life can be rewarding and truly wonderous.
5 years ago
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I'm sorry if I've caused somewhat of a whirlwind around you... I have a tendency to do that. I'm busy, always busy, even when I'm not busy, I'm busy... but I chose it. I do what I have to do out of love and commitment on many levels. I would love to slow down but I don't even know if I know how anymore. The minute Steve and I sit down to watch a show we both literally pass out... it's hard to find enough time in a day, a week, a month for every one of the kids and for us, let alone some 'me' time... yet when the opportunity does present itself, we're baffled as to what we're suppose to do.
I hope things slow down, maybe when school's out? maybe when the twins start school? I don't know. I keep thinking of changing jobs but I've got it pretty good here, I can pretty much come and go as needed, I have great benefits, it's just the commute that sucks. I would love a day off, unfortunately, my days off (weekends) end up being more work than my work week. I miss being a stay at home mom, raising my boys, but that time has come and gone... I do what I have to do because I love my family and even as exhausting as it is, I love my life now...
I just wish I had more time to enjoy everything... don't let my chaos wear you out... it's just temporary insanity...
I'm fairly familiar with 'temporary'insanity. It's been around a long, long time. And don't feel like everything is caused by you or I will have to start telling you all the things you probably don't really want to know. haha...sort of.
Anyway, you are doing a marvelous job and I have the highest regard for you and Steve too. It's all good. I get grouchy when I get behind and I've been behind now since i came back from Fayetteville. Plus I am a super slow turtle and it just all adds up.
You should relax. You're doing what you need to be doing and you're doing a dang good job.
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