I'm not sure what's going on here. Is it the last minute jitters? I didin't know that happens to the mother of the bride.!! Well, of course..why wouldn't it happen??!!! I feel like crying at any given moment. My delight and excitement feels like it's fading. Maybe I don't want to give my little bear away. Maybe I'm afraid she will wander away and forget to come back, which of course, I know is not true, but just the same......She might find comfort and contentment with her new family and not need this one as much. Maybe she will start to see even more of her mother's failings and weaknesses and just decide, "oh brother! I can't deal with that!!!" And I am aging as I type this. Oh well. It's the law of nature. New life negates the old. Brother!!! Maybe I'd better go order more flowers.
Pay no attention to this...it's just a catharthsis..(??? spellcheck...?????) I'm fine. Just a little teary-eyed. I've been this way before. And you didn't even notice, did you? Good. Everything is fine. Don't worry. I'm good. I want to get drunk.
5 years ago
2 comments:
I could sure use a drink today myself!
Change is always hard, even when it's good change. I would say to focus on the good part, the newness, the exciting stuff, but you already know that. Sometimes it's good to mourn the loss of the old. Perhaps we feel guilty or something in the midst of a happy occassion to be sad that things will never be exactly the way they were.
I will say this though, as the baby bear leaving the nest, as a newly found grown up bear, I need lots of help and guidance. You don't know how much I'm clinging to my mother bear to help me along the way. I may need you now more than ever.
As for your next blog, I'm not sure you want any comments. I just think that you are taking things out on yourself that you shouldn't. Don't give up on the intelligent academic that's within you.
Thank you jak.
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